I’m back. Turns out that my previous blogging attempt at self-motivating was not motivating enough for a second post huh. It’d feel almost poetic if I didn’t want to cry about it.
I have nothing to say about it simply because no pretty words would make me feel better about it so screw that. Alas, I am back and back for real (I’m trying). THIS TIME FOR SURE, something will work out. Mainly because I have mostly abandoned all hope in anything I do being as idyllically organised and operating smoothly since in my head I already messed up and life is a mess. Can’t go lower if you’ve hit rock bottom, right?
Right? 🙂
I truly pray neither my brain nor life decides to take that as a challenge.
Regardless, despite all delays, I am still very much working on my manga and as that draws closer (aha ‘draw’ (: ) I am trying to be kind to future me and establish some habits. Or routine exposure therapy for my usual anxiety, as I prefer to think of it. As such…
Hear ye, hear ye, I hereby decree:
My YouTube channel Stoa Reese, which mainly focuses on shorts for now, will (at the very least) receive new uploads every Saturday, effective as of yesterday. If you’re curious about the world and characters of this manga I keep mentioning, as well as art videos, check that out.
This blog right here will also feature new entries every Sunday, effective as of today.
Here ends my decree, may I forever suffer from warm pillows, warm hands, and warm feet should this oath ever be broken.
Then again I cannot promise myself that what will make it on there is my best work. I can promise myself the opposite of it though! What I care most about now is getting over the fear of putting something out and very much on purpose throwing quality to the flames. I spend way too much time obsessing over every pixel of my works that I’m slower than a snail at getting anything done. The turtle may have made it to the end but at this rate I’d only win something in a race if the judges had accidentally dropped a participation pamphlet on the floor and the post-event cleaners hadn’t got around to throwing it by the time I arrived. It’d be a close call.
So summoning Calcifer in my heart to burn down all hopes and expectations as my perfectionist and overthinking neural roundtable cries in horror at the exposure of such dirty socks. But it’s okay, because I am still fairly convinced that no more than 2-3 people, myself included, will ever see most of it. Also I am allergic to looking back on my own stuff and out-of-sight = out-of-mind has its rare uses 🙂
And when the risk of humans discovering this increases, I could very well summon Calcifer to burn down the online traces of such forsaken laundry instead, for that is a power I have as master of this corner of the internet mwahahaha.
Anyway, what is to come could be anything: filler stuff, works in progress, actual proper finished animations, rants, counting the weeks in which I have nothing to show for the 7 days worth of air that I consumed…
It’s gacha. Gacha for me, gacha for you, isn’t that nice? Don’t people(me, I am people) love that nowadays with all the games coming out. So what’s a little media content gamble. A lot of art projects are at the very least a bit of a gamble so in line with the medium, there we go.
That’s all I had to say for now, YouTube channel is up, the blog is back on so sniff around if (when) all doomscrolling has failed you, I’d appreciate the company.
Farewell till we meet again, a week from now,
